4-1. Healing is a process. It occurs in gradations. Release that which you wish to heal yourself. Knowing only Truth, God's infinite Love for you can shed Light into every darkness you still hold.
To hold is not to heal. To hold - onto anything at all, in Truth, no matter whether it might be a now long passed situation, a relationship that simply could no longer continue, or at its most ineffective, any possession at all - is but to be unrelenting in the face of the infinite flow of alteration that is the absolutely inherent nature of All That Is. To hold is to be unrepentant of your own desire to be unforgiving, and that will consistently and inexorably set you directly at odds with the Will of God, for what could be a more apt description of Love than to say that it is the ability to forgive all, recognizing only Truth and overlooking everything that is not at all reflective of the infinitely merciful Nature of God? To hold is to state that you know better than God what it is that any particular event or person was designed to teach you, and this assumption, so verily cast against the one Source of all Knowledge, is the epitome of arrogance. To hold is to be rigid when only those than can bend into the winds of change will remain stable, for the others whose roots will be rent apart by unwelcomed difficulty will find themselves toppled by the most minuscule of storms, which is not at all a position that is reflective of the Power of God. There is another way, but it requires clarity and acceptance, not dissonance and resistance. To heal from all that has transpired that was wounding in any way at all, there must first be a conscious election to allow the energetic consequences of the event to be released, which is not always a process that is at all simple or effortless to accomplish in a single moment. While it is, as it has always been, absolutely feasible to surrender all that has ailed you to God instantaneously and without any effort whatsoever, that is not at all commonplace, for the ego can be quite enamored of what it believes to be distinguishing about the pain that you have endured, so very assured that it is somehow different, in some manner that has no genuine justification, from similar trials that so many others have transcended or, for some, become subsumed under. That is the essence of healing, in one of its most important aspects - to recognize that it is amazingly improbable that there has not already been at least one other Child of God who has faced a situation possessed of sufficiently similar circumstances that they could indeed stand as a beacon of inspiration, demonstrating to you that what your ego tells you is impossible - that you can be whole again, divested of all of the relentless anguish that you cause yourself when you refuse to accept that the complete transcendence of all trauma is not only possible - it is, in Truth, inevitable. This is confusing in the utmost to the ego, for the ego desires pain as a form of justification of its own self-assigned beliefs in specialness and uniqueness, a strange perversion of the Truth that all of the Children of God are unique, both in their Creation and in their individual perceptional framework from which they regard All That Is, so very flavored by their own experiences. The ego wants to alter the Truth of your uniqueness and infinite value into a parody, one that assigns to you specialness of isolation, a distinctness of suffering and an intractability of remedy, for to the ego, what you have endured is unlike anything that any other has faced, and you are indeed beset by God for having been “forced” to “deal” with so much, when so many others seem to live lives of ease and abundance. Such is the self-pitying nature of the ego, so determined to be the only valid arbiter of the import of any particular challenge, for from whence might stagnation surrounding some unforgiven trauma arise, save from the endless chasm of the ego’s blindness and strife, so determined to specify a singular organizational pattern for all that it sees, ensconced solely within its own inverted perspective, that it refuses to even believe that the Light of Love might actually be capable of recasting all that has transpired not as unfairness and inequity, but rather as opportunities for learning and growth, even if the package of occurence that they were encased within was deeply unpleasant indeed. Retaining an unforgiving nature towards all that assailed and assaulted you will never lead to healing in any form, for you animate those wayward phantasms of past difficulty through your willingness to continue to feed them upon your pain and misery, and so do they retain some hauntingly profound ability to envelop you into their mists of misperception, for you are their master but you believe yourself to be subjugated into them, a helpless serf in a land of their elementary and unbreakable control. Yet that is not True - it has never been, and it will never be. Even the most wretched and accursed heartbreak can be released and given back to God, a lesson in impermanence and the impossibilities that are endemic to this world of form, for the specialness of romantic love is not always genuinely and wholly reflective of the Peace and stability of Love in its singular and universal form. When troubles arise and forgiveness seems a choice that cannot be elected, turn to God instead of to your bitterness. Release all that you can, when you are able, and all that is given for healing and transcendence will be taken, just to the amount that you are genuinely willing to be rid of it forever. Never doubt the ability of Infinity to contain All That Is, and then - redundantly stated yet still importantly emphasized - infinitely more there after. That is one of the most important aspects of faith, yet it is often the hardest to trust, for the ego is nothing if not the veritable definition of limitedness and littleness, so determined to gain your loyalty when it cannot possibly contain anything at all that is reflective of the Truth of Love; for that Truth is Infinite, and so nothing that is an illusion can in any way be a proper reflection save for that which is of this world, but never created by it. The ego is an aspect of an existence experienced as form, and so it is inherently and unalterably limited. Pain is as this as well - it is not truly an experience that is in any way understandable or acceptable from a perspective that is unlimited, for while transient suffering is a constituent component of a life lived in form, none of that is at all designed or even able to be carried forth unto God, as if it could be utilized as some form of evidence to support a claim of error within All That Is. None of that is logical at all, and all of it is the nonsense of the ego, but it is certainly understandable, when the dominant perceptual framework that is used for analysis of the material world is the ego’s ministrations of uselessly poisonous salves against wounds that would heal, were they simply to be allowed to no longer fester in the darkness of the ego’s unrelenting unforgiveness. The Light of Love can cleanse and then suture all that is wounding, but first the Light must be accepted - when it is rejected, for whatever reason and even if those rationales are meaningless, the Light will respect your Free Will and it will not impose itself where it is not welcomed. Such is the nature of the assistance of God, which is infinitely capable of releasing you from all that you still hold onto as pain that has ever had any purpose at all, for all that is painful is not Created by God, even though it can be repurposed into learning, when it is not resisted but rather seen through as an unpleasantry that was experienced but that is unlikely to continue indefinitely. All that is challenging will end. All that is not Joy will cease. All that is not Love will fall behind you. All that is not of God will not continue beyond the end of the necessity for the seemingly linear movement of time. In all of that, you can be certain and still. Knowing that there must come an infinitely vast moment when time is no longer required at all, and that all that is not of God cannot be carried beyond this great envelopment of all that has transpired by the Love that was the reason that this world of form was Created, what use do you have, at this exact instant, for attempting to drag forward into later periods of time that which has hurt you in the past? Is that to ask of God to be relieved, or is that to be continuous in your application of a presumption that has never assisted you at all? Answer but this, and answer it for yourself truly and bravely, most precious Child of God, for by doing so, you will uncover within yourself all that remains resistant to the Return of Love that carries within its infinite Grace all of the Light that you have ever requested or desired, a Light so vast and so Perfect that within its illumination, all that was unforgiven and unreleased will be set aside, finally and completely, for you will have given unto God all that was painful, finding in its place that the peace of acceptance and the healing of Love was always possessed of the Power to render you able to Remember your Completeness, a promise now fulfilled and a healing now so perfect that no blemish of past unrelentiveness will remain.