2-58. In the deep waters of self reflection you can not fail to find that the Truth of the Heart of Love is forever joined with your eternal Soul.
Your heart is an ocean. You may believe that it is but a little pond, perhaps so shallow that you could not create even a tiny splash if you were to dive into its hidden depths. But that is not at all the case. The ego will attempt to hide from you all that is available in the infinite fathoms of your heart. Don’t allow your ego to convince of you of this truth, for it is but another lie of the ego, offered in substitute for a Truth that will forever Free you from the apparent limits of this world. There is no bottom to the ocean of Love that is your Awakened heart, for at its center, it eternally connects to the Heart of God, serving as a permanent wellspring of Joy. You can find - or rather remember - this Joy whenever you should wish to do so. But don’t expect that it will be a simple task. While the actual processes involved in releasing the ego and returning to Love require no effort at all, it is generally the case that digging down through the muck and mire of illusion than your ego has attempted to use to pollute your heart will require time and patience. You must clear away the lugubrious infestation of doubt that the ego has cast over your mind so that you can once again view your heart as what it is, in Truth - a perfect channel that can lead you back to the Memory of the Love of God, a memory buried so deeply that it cannot be accessed with your “conscious” mind. Your conscious mind, which is but the thinnest of layers resting above a vast plane of awareness, is so horrifically limiting and so utterly devoid of the ability to correctly perceive anything that it will not serve you to attempt to use what you currently believe to be the summary limits of your awareness to find and Remember the Love of God. You must go deeper than this - much, much deeper, to levels of awareness that surpass all that this world will tell you is at all possible. Trust God, precious Child of God. God Knows your heart. You may, as of yet, not know the true breadth of how far your heart actually reaches. That is of no consequence to the journey that you will undertake when you turn away from the ego’s wretched littleness, accepting at first only that it might be possible that there could be more than the ego’s dreams of isolation and pain. You will navigate through a new wilderness of perception, trusting the guidance of your heart solely and completely, leaving behind your ego to dwell in its palace of protest, forever insisting that there could not possibly be more to this world that what your ego will hold out to you as the totality of all that is real. The ego knows nothing of what is actually Real, for the ego is an illusion and it will always remain just that - a self-generated and self-sustaining illusion, feeding endlessly on itself, forever attempting to justify its existence through means that have no value or support when the ego is viewed from the perspective of all that is actually Real. You must be willing to move beyond logic, contemplation or reason, instead accepting that there is a journey that you can - and indeed that you will - complete, but only when you are ready to Trust God in a way that the ego can never be trusted. The ego does not want you to be joyous. God already Knows that you are Joy Itself, but you have not yet accepted this simple Truth for yourself. You have attempted to shut yourself off from the Love of God because you have, for whatever reason and frequently for no reason at all, assumed that what the ego has offered for all of these long years has in some way been preferable to what God already Knows to be forever True. With each stroke you swim deeper into the apparently lightless depths of your heart, leaving behind the surface of everyday awareness and journeying forever downwards, seemingly without any hope of logical or reasonable navigation, searching for a Truth that can never be known - it must be Experienced to be accepted, for it goes so far beyond all that is commonly described in this world as knowledge that it truly transcends the mind, allowing you direct access to the Memory of God which has rested safely at the center of your heart. You may be afraid while you dive ever lower, leaving behind all that appeared to be certain in favor of the limitless expanse that is the truly bottomless depths of your heart. Bravery, courage and grace will be required to complete this process, for you will be challenged every step of the way by your ego, because it will sense - in the limited fashion that it can employ, which is so fractionally representative of all that can be intuited that to call it awareness is pitifully incorrect - that you are leaving its realm and that you are progressing towards a place that the ego can never tread. Do not listen to its plaintive calls for you to return. It has nothing to offer you, nor has it ever. While the Light of Love might seem dim and you progress ever further towards trusting that your heart - and not your mind - will never lead you astray, Trust that this is not the Truth at all. The Light only appears dim because you are so unaccustomed to its Clarity that you will mistake it - at least at first - for some other form of darkness, for truly you have dwelled in darkness for so long that to attempt to discern that which is Real from that which is of the ego, which is never real, can appear to be terribly challenging, at least at first. Trust that you will be Guided, venturing ever further away from the ego, becoming more and more willing to rely solely on the perfect Guidance that your heart will offer, even if what you are told or what you feel appears, at least at first, to be truly alien to your mind. At the center of your heart is a connection to and a joining with all that is Eternal, a holy rendezvous which you will Return to your Soul, knowing and finally accepting that you have never been at all under threat in any form, for you are forever Safe within the Mind of God and there is nothing that could ever occur that could sever or break the connection that you share with God. The Heart of Love is the Heart of God, and this perfect Heart is forever intractably welded to your heart, formed in a bond that cannot be altered for it was forged in the crucible of Creation and it will forever remain temperate, forever accessible and utterly unchangeable, for it is the Will of God that you will be kept Safe until such a time that you are ready to See that there was never anything to fear. Fear has blinded you to Love. Yet Love will Free you, allowing you to regard a completely new world, a place of Joy and Light in which the Children of God reside but never remain, arriving and leaving in processes that this world describes as birth and death but which are, in Truth, meaningless transitions between different states of awareness. The degree to which you are willing to trust your heart - without reservation and without any limitation for any reason, will directly govern the amount to which you will finally be able to Remember the Joy of the Love of God, freeing you from all that this world appeared to be, so that you might regard it as what it actually is, in Truth - a veritable Garden of Perfection, forever Lit by the Love of God and absolutely perfect, just as it is. Dive all of the way to the center of your heart, Child of God, and you will find that what you have for so long sought on the outside has always been present on the inside. You have always been Home. You have simply been willing to accept the ego’s lies, believing that there was somewhere to go or something to do that might qualify you for the Love of God. You needed no such qualification, for you are Loved just as you are, and that has always been all that you have ever needed.