5-4. To awake to Love, you must first have been asleep. Do not fret the time that passed while you slumbered. Nothing occurred that could have ever hidden your heart from God. The gentlest Light now calls you Home.
Who so frets if they have no idea that there is anything at all that might be worthy of enjoining them in consternation and upset? Few if any that subsist in a state of absolute disconnection from their own slumber, believing themselves to be just a body, existing within a rote experience of life that is defined by materialistic attractions and the constant threat of attack, so easily presumed to be the final venue of a mind that is utterly unquestioning of the formulaic and base level presumptions of what it is to be alive, let alone conscious. Of these, there will be no awakening in any ready manner, not because it is unavailable to them, or because they are undeserving in any way at all - such assumptions are of the ego, rendered in rejection of the Truth of Love, and thrust against the countenance of another who is believed to be lesser in some manner or another, all of which is so very oppositional to their genuine situations. It is not that they will likely awaken later than others because they are required to delay their Return, or that they are not already and eternally possessed of all that is necessary and requisite for such an enlightenment from this world and reunification with God - it is simply that they do not even dream that such a state of Grace might be possible, let alone achievable and livable within during the time they remain incorporate and corporeal, and so they remain ensconced within their own beliefs, seemingly content with their barest of entertainments and distractions. They have not failed to realize what they are - they have simply not yet approached the transitional point of inflection that defines what it is to question all that is, realizing at the end that it is the awareness that is capable of such a cognition and then inquiry that is the answer that they seek, even if they do not readily realize that they are presenting such an inquiry to themselves or to the universe as a whole. What is it to Awaken? It is simply a release of all that is restrictive in any way at all, all of which simply entails a surrender of belief patterns so readily adopted and so unquestioningly venerated that their enervating effects are unseen, so that one becomes almost an automaton of the ego, reactive in endless measure but never pausing to consider what it might be that one is reacting to, assumptive of the necessity of interaction and of a position within All That Is that is relegated to obscurity and possible ineptitude, simply because the ego desires to learn nothing at all, less these newly enriching discoveries countermand the commandments of the illusion that is a belief in separation that knows no final resolution. That you have “wasted” time is not at all an appropriate manner within which to regard all that has transpired in the past, for there is no use for time other than to be your steadfast companion, accompanying you on a Path that leads only ever higher, away from thoughts of subjugation and dissolution and back towards the Truth that your Unity with Love is complete, even though your understanding of the implications of that Truth may be only partially accepted or even actively rejected, at least at first. Time cannot be “wasted” simply because time was Created to be the backdrop upon which you experiment with what it might be to be unconscious to Love, living a subservient life that reflects just such an assumption of disconnection, only to find at the end that all that you believed that all of that could, or “should” be, was but projections of your own imagining, never a reality that was reflective of what you “deserved” or, more directly, what you Are, in Truth. Even the conceptualizations and associated consternation that they cause when you first start to realize that anything at all might have been slipping behind you while you stride forward unto the enlightenment that erases all concepts of “sin” and “error” are but artifacts and affectations of the ego, for the ego is desirous of retaining your attention and focus in any manner that is available to it, including using your newly found perspective to increase its critical and deconstructive bent, so that it can continue to enthrall you with stories of your unworthiness and lack of value, all of which are but lies so very expertly wrapped in layers of presentations that seem so justified from the ego’s perspective. Time was not lost, nor was it dissipated or unraveled in some manner that might have been more efficacious if you had been invested within uncovering all that you had mistaken for Truth from the first instance of your arrival within a body, or even the exact “moment” - although it was not an instant at all, for it occurred concomitantly with the Creation of time itself - that you first found yourself able to step away from God and to imagine what a world absent the Light of Love might be, and what it might entail as a place absent Truth, and thusly governed by the lies of the ego and the darkness of illusion, endlessly and completely. Nothing altered while you slept, dreaming of being just a body, bundled into form and seemingly fragile indeed, for bodies can fail but souls never do. The passing of time serves the purposes of Love and of God - not of lies and illusion. All can be engineered to provide to you all that is necessary and proper for you to have or experience, just as it is of the greatest utility at the time of its apex of alignment with your curriculum, and so it will be, although the manners of its presentations or the certainty of such intersections of seemingly random occurrences may not be at all readily apparent, nor need they be for you to continue to develop your Faith that there is a process that is ongoing and ever-present, one that does what is best for the learning of all, even if your own is seemingly derailed or distanced from its ultimate or maximal expression at any particular point in time. That which is Eternal is both outside of time and present in all of time, all at the same time, which of course is a rueful use of the phrase, as it is applicable in its singular and universal implications, equally and coarisingly. Perhaps during the time that unfolded, you attempted to hide away from God, believing yourself to be unworthy, or at its greatest malfeasance of misappropriation in the manner that your ego overtook your mind, you believed yourself to be unneeded by God, or God to be unnecessary for your continued existence. Such folly as is this that is contemplated by the sleeping Children of God, but they are not to be condemned for their contemplations or harangued for their histrionics when they rail and flail about, so very tortured indeed, so in pain and so reluctant to allow any relief to salve their self-inflicted wounds. All that is misery is a disconnection from your own heart, an elected position of denial that pits you against yourself, but that the ego presumes must be the correct perspective from which to view a world so alien and inhospitable that rage and fear must be the two counterbalancing emotional fluctuations that most aptly capture all that it is to be alive and corporeal in form. Such self aggrandizement as this is blatant indeed in its endless blindness. Such pronouncements of ignoble suffering that have no reflection in Truth. There is only time expended - never time wasted. Time exists so that you might have all of the space you need to discover what it is to be a blessed and beloved Child of God, and so from that final release, ascend as a reawakened soul, no longer burdened by illusion and freed from suffering, all of which was utterly unnecessary in any manner at all that can be accurately said to be an accurately rendered observation of this world of form. That you will Awaken is Certain. That you will take up as much time as you believe you require to explore all that it means to be asleep to Love is also guaranteed. What is not determined at all is exactly when that most golden and precious moment will arrive when you will be willing to ask what it is that the ego has actually delivered to you at all, for at that time of most heartfelt inquiry, you will see that it was always nothing at all. What is there to rush about a process that must unfold over just the span of time that you require to explore all that it is to believe that you are anything other that Unified with God? What is there to regret, if you untook just such a journey because there was no where else to wander except back to the Perfection that was both your genesis and your final resting place, Remembering God and setting aside all that is restrictive in any manner at all? Nothing need be condemned, for all serves just the purposes for which it was Created, including the vast reaches of time now fallen behind you and the enormous vistas of temporal possibility that remain yet to be explored. Go forth and find what it is that you seek, for always it will be within, and forever you shall have all of the time that you require to discover that you have always been possessed of all of the answers that have ever arisen, now and forever.