5-5. A million variations, the same Creation. Your judgment affects it not. You do not know why life unfolds as it does. Your peace will return when you allow yourself to trust that God knows the purpose of everything.
There is a contradiction contained within surrender that must be resolved before you will be able to trust God implicitly and completely. Much occurs that is random. Chaos rules the world of form, and it should, for without the stochastic processes of the universe, all would be predestined, and that is hardly a formulation of reality that is particularly supportive of your own Free Will, for if all is already determined, what is there for you to elect on your own? Nothing at all would remain in such an organizational pattern, for there would be no ability to affect any outcome or alter any course of action, for all would have already been decided for you, and so you would be a mere pawn, awaiting the next move of your overlording commander, wholly unable to believe that you have any ability to control what it is that is to arrive next for you. That is not the way of God, and that is not how this world of form is organized, and for that you should be joyous indeed, for a world that lacks any chaos is not one that can be an effective platform for the expansion of any mind in any way at all. Varied are the expression of God, multitudinous and variegated in their representations, all seemingly expressive of forms of appearance that have no unifying origin or singular structure of creation that determines their final outcome and individualistic presentation. That they vary is well indeed, for if all were so very similar that distinguishment was nearly impossible, what would there be to personal expression within a homogenous pool of similarity? Confusion for most of the Children of God ensues when they attempt to postulate a premise of differentiation based upon surface level observations, believing that simply because there are a great variety of forms, those forms must be expressive of some manner of fundamental and non-unifiable constitutionality that speaks to a division that has no hope of reunification. And of course no one should be faulted for all of that, for it is confusing indeed to present to them the simple conclusion that whilst the forms may vary, their fundamental composition knows no distinction at all. Of all of the variations, there are none that are devoid of purpose. None serve simply the effects of chaos alone, arising in forms that have no utility or value. All are aspects of the developmental patternings that are reflective of the greatest level of adaptability to their environmental influences, but the spirit that animates them all is the same - God, in all of the forms that Infinity can be poured into form and then arise as a seemingly singular aspect of a Totality that is unbroken and undivided by the manners of expression that were found to be the most advantageous or adapted to any particular set of physical requirements. From all of this, there arises a certainly singularity of inquisitiveness, a desire to know the “why” of it all, to delve so deeply into study and science that we uncover all of the interrelationships between all that lives, so that we can attempt to state that because we have calculated the sum of all of the parts, we must now be in the position of positively stating that we have understood the whole. That is farcical at best and utterly inefficient at worst, for it would require countless years of exacting inquiry to even begin to tabulate all that is of form, and yet we would be cataloguing epithelial cells in the hopes of understanding the inner workings of the vast networks of neurons that make up the mammalian brain. What can come of a review of the surface of any form of life, other than a deeper understanding of the materiality of its existence, a course of inquiry that presents to us only the “how” of their existence, but never the “why” of their arising within form, fired by Creation and expressive of a Love so very vast that it sought out all that it could create, and then birthed such expressions into form for no reason other than the joy of allowing them to share in all that is eternal and universally perfect. It is quite acceptable that you may not ever understand all that there is to know about material reality or the vast panoply of the array of forms that it can take, for you are not intended to be the universal fount of knowledge that understands all in an empirical fashion, thusly missing the underlying currents of creativity and unity that are so much more important that their final expression in any particular form. In the same manner, Faith is a process of learning to transform trust into Trust, a willingness given over to God not in the interests of subjugating your own Free Will, but rather as a surrender to the Guide that knows all that there is to know, and so can be Trusted to align you with whatever is best for you at any particular time, selecting from the randomness of available resources all that would be of the greatest benefit for you to learn or discover. This process requires a suspension of judgment that is total, for every time that you desire to project upon the world of form all that you believe it should be, you exclude nothing at all from the potentiality that it possesses - you merely turn your face away from its emergence, insisting that it must be impossible, and then steadfastly refusing to see it when it does occur, for you have already elected to believe what you are certain will be unavailable to you, and so it will not arise, not because it is not possible but because you have freely elected to prejudge its existence as being wholly out of alignment with your own. What madness is that? What fleeting revelry of objective ignorance is it to allow all that might be possible to be reduced to a tiny subset of reality, so that you only experience what it is that you think is best, ignoring all else, for you have already mapped out all that you desire to see, and so all else is excluded before it has even had a chance to be born into your life? Allowance untangles all of this, placing you in a position of acceptance and open heartedness, a resonant alignment that is much more harmonious with the Love of God than any form of judgment will ever be. From such a state, much can arise and your desire to judge it from your fundamentally limited perspective will subside, slowly and utterly effortlessly, for you will become increasingly willing to accept that you do not always know all that is possible, and so it is unfailingly preferable to be open to the direction and guidance that can manifest in whatever form is best for the utilization of the chaos of materiality, in conjunction with your own remaining lessons in the universal applicability of Love, so that you can become increasingly confident that God does indeed provide for you just what you need to learn from, exactly when its time is most opportune. The transformation of trust into Trust and faith into Faith is not for the faint of heart, or those that remain unwilling to believe that it could be possible that they are Unified with something so much larger than themselves that the ego cannot possibly tread where it is that they are next to journey, for it is an opening of the heart that is the ultimate form of surrender, allowing all to be as it is and releasing all desires to hold on to any situation or person, for there is always more that can be learned and it is frequently the case that alterations in life circumstances, while painful when they occur, are often the necessary catalysts for the creation of newer and deeper levels of understanding the intentionality and purposefulness of God. Creation is Unitary and singular, but its expressions are enormously vast and multivariate indeed. To see beyond all that is seemingly differentiated by its exact form - to look within first, and then to see all that is found there is without as well - that is the Peace of God. That is the Awakening of your ability to See everything just as it is - not divisive because it is differentiated, but unified through variability. To the unabashedly closed mind, these Truths appear to be irreconcilable. Yet to the heart, they are the principles of Creation that are unquestioned and appreciated, for they ensure that there can be both chaos and Unity, all coexisting within a much higher-order structure that is approachable with the mind, but only traversable with the heart. Step through all that seems to be a barrier, and you will find yourself Awakening to a Light that is so very bright that all that seemed discrete will be revealed as the Perfection it always was - including its singular reflection within your own heart, a guarantee of Salvation from illusion that is ever accessible and dependent solely upon your willingness to Trust that you will be shown what is best, and that you need never struggle to locate your next step, for your heart knows the way to go Home, and so your Return to Love is always absolutely certain.