5-9. It is an utterly inconsequential folly to believe you are unworthy of Heaven. All that God Creates is Perfect. As such, you are already Perfect. Release your fears and Love will be all that is left.
It is difficult to overstate how foolish indeed it is to believe that you are something that you are not. Certainly the mountain does not believe that it is a river, nor does the fish believe that it is a bird. Such aspects of Creation that do not spend inordinate amounts of time in self reflection do not become confused as to their nature, for they remain centered in the present and as such, they are not affected by self-generated illusions that attempt to hold them out as some aspect of reality that they do not occupy. The ego is not as this, and so it prevaricates endlessly, believing itself to be something that it cannot possibly be, thus spinning an entire web of lies and impertinent impostership, all in the interest of distracting you from your core certainty, one that ascribes to you the Light of Creation Itself, all Complete, always Perfect, and utterly Whole, just as you are as well. But what is there to be seen when the ego rules and your heart is ignored? Much indeed, although none of it is actually Real. The ego creates from nothingness because it is nothing at all, and so it must engineer an entire world that it wishes to use to distract you, venturing forth into a wilderness of blindness that has no final borders, for it stretches endlessly away in front of you, always capable of being able to create new crevices of contemplation into which you can stumble and be absorbed, considering what is held out as real and valuable when it is but the empty nature of the ego, clad in valueless propositions that seem so very enticing when they are regarded from the perspective that has created them. Unworthiness contains its own resolution, for it is an idea of an incompleteness in Creation that has no justification, but which is certainly understandable from the directiveness of the ego. When you decide to stop pursuing the ego’s announcements of failure and you instead cease your forwardly ambulatory stumble long enough to inquire with your own heart about what it is that is being presented, you become able to observe it rationally and directly, rather than just skirting around the issue endlessly, always refusing to see that it is all illusionary and ungrounded from anything at all that can be justified as being realistic. The ego hopes to distract you with lies because it cannot offer any truthfulness at all, for the ego has no idea what it really is, although it suspects that it is not quite the grandiose imagining of a separation from Love that it presumes must be its creative framework, but whenever the ego brushes up against such a realization, it instantly turns tail and flees in the opposite direction, for if the ego were to confront itself directly and with absolute honesty - although such a dramatic showdown will never occur - it would cancel itself right out of existence, for the ego would see that it is nothing, and so it would be its own undoing. Ask not for this, for it will never occur. All that is self-sustaining has no interest in becoming its own termination, for that would be destructive of its belief that it is necessary and vital to your continuance, when it Truth, the ego sustains only itself in endlessly recursive imaginings, always attempting to extend its control and increase its mental holdings over the territory of your mind, in a process of claims extended and possessions annexed not for your own sake, but purely for the sustainment of an illusion that has no value at all. Yet there is another way. It is not a path that the ego understands and it is never a journey that the ego can take with you, for it ventures far beyond all beliefs in limitations and impossibilities, and those realms of Reality are not at all amenable to the sustainment or support of the ego and its endlessly encroaching lies. To begin investing yourself within a process of releasing all that was never real, ask if you truly believe that you are unworthy of Love. Begin with just that, but be truthful, for the ego will absolutely counter your investigation with the presumption that no one is genuinely deserving of universal and eternally applied Love, for the ego believes that you are unworthy, to one extent or another, and so all that is given without reservation must become qualified within the ambit and understanding of the ego, for what is there of Love that the ego can genuinely understand? Remember that to the ego, love is always conditional - never impartial and applicable to all situations without reservation. The ego’s version of love is transactional and predicated upon the existence of certain forms of conditionality, as well as the absence of other impediments that, to the ego, restrict the flow of Love from the mighty River of Truth that it is into tiny trickles, dropping slowly from on high with no guarantee of continuance. The Love of God is not as this, but the ego cannot possibly understand that, and so it presumes to know what it never will, acting as an arbiter of a relationship that it has never actually participated in at all. Unworthiness presumes error, and there are no mistakes in Creation. Your Perfection is not of the physical world - not of a lack of misunderstanding, or words spoken in anger, or misdeeds undertaken for incorrect reasons, or whatever else it is that you continue to desire to hold against yourself as charges of transgression that cannot possibly be forgiven. God does not judge you as that, for forgiveness is universal in scope and eternal in import and implication. The Perfection of Creation is found in the very center of your heart - it is the open and eternally uncontestable channel that provides for a manner of communication between your own centrality of certainty and that of God, ensuring that you will always be possessed of the ability to be reassured and directed appropriately, no matter how confused you might be regarding the purposes of the world of form, or genuinely distrustful of your own ability to distinguish between illusion and Truth. Heaven is so very misunderstood in the world of form that it has become some seemingly unreachable nirvana, reserved solely for the most blameless of all of the Children of God, a place of contentment and Light that is so very easy to lose, if one is to behave in a manner that is vile or cruel. Only through your own choices can you dwell within a hell of your own creation, and indeed you will for just as long as you believe that you deserve no better than the condemnation and desolation of the ego, when in Truth, it is Love that calls you Home. Yet what you will not accept God cannot Give, not because God is not omnipotent, but simply because you are willing to steadfastly refuse that which is offered, and so its entreaties of supplication to your highest certainties - the ones kept safe for you in the center of your heart, assured of their applicability to all situations no matter their surface level of presentation - they all fall away unheeded, simply because you refuse to believe that you are deserving of all that they offer. What an error this is, but what is there of error other that recognition of its inapplicability to a Child of God, and then its release in favor of a better path? Heaven has no relationship with anything at all that is physical. Heaven is an alignment with the Love of God that is absolute and eternal - accepted completely, it transforms all from the illusions of the ego into the Peace of God, leaving you perfectly assured of your own True Nature, because it is a reflection of the Nature of God and so it is Perfect, too. There is nothing that need be lost as you progress ever further towards this state of grace - you are asked not to relinquish anything at all, but rather you are instructed to employ the twin pillars of faith and surrender to allow all that never was to be so very gently washed away, so that the Light of Love can be seen ever increasingly as just what it is - omnipresent and eternal. Futile imaginings of the ego cannot sever your connection to God. Errors of perception and commitments to the sustainment of a set of principles that has no reflection in Truth have not served to alter Creation in any way at all. Look within again with a genuine desire to set aside presumptions and you will become ever more able to See that the Light that is All That Is was always resident within, and because it was never lost, Heaven was not taken from you. It is with you now, and you need only accept that you have always been worthy of being Loved beyond all that can ever be imagined to Remember that which you previously assumed to be lost forever. Separation did not wrest you away from the Heart of God. You simply dreamed that it might be so. Awaken now and you will find that nothing has changed and that Love remains your indivisible companion, just as it was Created to be.